Finally I’ve gotten back into the habit of working out again! Mom and I have been jogging twice daily to the end of the road and back which conveniently is one mile there and back. Now if I could just get an eliptical and a rowing machine and a bow flex and some free weights I’ll be back on schedule. I have gotten so out of shape over Christmas, but that will change of course as soon as I go back to school. I got some cool things this Christmas. I got some new Chaco’s that aren’t even released yet because they are in NEXT YEAR’S catalog! Super cool. Over Christmas I’ve been pretty busy getting a big-girl wardrobe and hairstyle, etc. I got a crock pot/ slow cooker that cooks 3-4 qt. so it’s a nice large one so I can cook soup and stew. I’m going back on a diet on New Years. I know every one says that, but the fact that mine started in November I think I will be better suited to maintaining a resolution. I got new running shoes, socks and track pants. YAY. Oh and I sold another book. Today we are going to visit Granny and Grandpa and then to pick up the book so I can ship it. We’re going to BigLots and BJ’s to get water and slimfast so I can start my new diet.

Oh we also just fed all of our animals. Except we couldn’t find the crickets for the newts. I love the gopher tortoise.

So that’s all really. Ill try and post again soon!

mdl

Yes, I believe in past lives and that is the decision I reached tonight at dinner with Rial. I was a mother or something in my past life, and I think in Africa because I want to visit there so much. I think I was a mother of many many children.

Anyway, I didn’t update yesterday so here’s what I did. I went shopping, I bought a new shirt, I went to see National Treasure. It was super good, and that’s all I did. Oh my mom and I argued a bit.

Today I woke up and my mom cut my hair and it’s cute. Then I went up to eat lunch with Daddy and Eriko. We ate at Chef Lin’s in Chattanooga and it was really yummy. Then we went to the guitar center to get my guitar tuned but they were too busy, so it didn’t get tuned. Then we went to Target and Staples to get school supplies for next semester.

Then I went to hang out with Rial and ended up popping my 9th string (12-string guitar). Oh well, the essential 6 are there.

So yeah I think I’ll go play now. My mom apparently ate bad clam chowder and now I think she has botulism. So pray for that.

mdl

It’s time for me to stop complaining and actually take some action. It’s time for me to stop listening to the voices that say slow down and relax and enjoy your time. If “enjoying” my time is what I’m currently doing, I wish to end it as soon as humanly possible. I have to ignore the voices that say 6 classes are too much. I took 6 this semester, and I have a better assortment of classes next semester. I have to push full-force forward if I ever wish to be happy in life again. Simply moving with the tides isn’t working for me any more.

I complain constantly when I am home to Rial about how miserable I am. I have to stop this. I have to find a way to become self-sufficient and independent.

Gah how do I get my self in these situations where I have no money and no way to escape the endless spiral of unhappiness. One thing is certain though, I love my boyfriend. But even that relationship is affected by my current lack of independence. If only I were a little more grown up we could be together permanently. If only I lived closer to him he might feel it appropriate to propose to me. DAMNIT. I want to be there. I want to be at that point in my life. I want to get out of my mom’s house. Fuck. I hate this.

mdl

So in high school English, my teacher, Mrs. Bryan, had us write “love” poems. The goal was to see who could write the most facetious love poem. I won. Here’s my poem:

I love you honey, but don’t you think

you could wash your clothes?

Because gosh you stink!

You say our life will be a bed of roses;

only, in it we would hold our noses!

I’ll live with you and be your love

and pray for rain from God above.

You smell bad and you’re ugly, too!

How did I end up with you?

I’ll live with you and be your wife

and take five showers a day

for the rest of my life!

Hah! I hope you enjoyed it. Notably, I am not that miserable in real life, but Rial does stink sometimes. Any how. Today I’ve been been cleaning my room at mom’s house as she instructed me “20 times by now.” I’m going to Dalton on Saturday to eat with Dad and Eriko for Christmas and to get my Birthday/Christmas present, which is the most awesome ever: a 12-string guitar. I can’t wait. Then he’s going to take me shopping for next semester so I won’t run out of notebooks, index cards, pencils, and ink.

I believe that’s all for today. I may edit later, I just wanted to share that poem. More to come, I’m sure because I’m cleaning and organizing my room.

mdl

Good news! I have a new easily updateable blog site! Thanks Rial for helping me set it up. I love you much. Even though no one will ever read this, I will keep it updated on the off-chance that someone actually does. Who knows, you may get lucky and get a poem or something of the sort.

Today I woke up and got Finneus from the vet. I had all of his masculinity removed. Poor thing. Then mom and I ate at this BBQ place that was probably the showcase of redneck-dom almost parallel to Glynn County. Men came in with their camo and hunting gear and men came in with leather Harley jackets which were labeled appropriately “Rebel For Life,” complete with a worn off Rebel Confederate Flag.

My mom had a faculty meeting to attend at a school near Marietta, so she dropped me off at my apartment to get a textbook I finally sold so I can mail it to the purchaser tomorrow. If anyone is interested, by the way, in used textbooks, head on over to thatmollygirl’s marketplace on Amazon.com. I’m listing all of the books I have used in the past and need to sell.

I brought a coat hanger for the back of my door at school to hang towels on. I hope you appreciate that, Rial. Also, supposedly I’m still a teenager because my mom informed me that I needed to do laundry and clean my room and that she’s asked me twice and it needs to get done. Bah, whatever. Anyhow. I think I’ve exhausted the contents of my brain, and as it is Christmas break, and I will continue to call it Christmas break not Winter Break, or Holiday Break, my hands are not quite used to typing. Have an awesome 18th of December.

mdl