and The Commodores came on. awesome. So I’m listening to that. I had my POLS midterm today, and it was decent, then I went to sociology (SHOCKER I KNOW!) and found out, for never going to class I’m making a 94 in that class. Literally, I don’t go to that class. I only went today because we have a project we’re doing Wednesday. HA. So then I came home and wrote a French essay, I know, loads of fun, you wish you were writing a French essay, too. But you’re not, so I know you’re jealous. Then I logged onto World of Warcraft, only to find that the guild I co-created has an astounding 125 members, and that we pretty much kick booty.

My expedition into the way of Sir Buddha is going decently. My jealousy has eased a bit. My meditation ability is not so good. It would help if I could even sit still for 5 minutes at a time. But it takes practice. ***NOTE: Destiny’s Child- Bills, Bills, Bills just came on*** Just thought I’d update readers on my music selection while I post. Hm. Then I decided not to write a 3-4 page paper. That was an exciting event. mmm Pearl Jam- Love, Reign O’er Me just came on. I love this song.

Let’s see. Oh my anger has let up a bit since I’ve been thinking through things. And I’m trying to ease up on my material and physical desires. But that’s a hard one. lol.

I started reading a book. The Oxygen Man. It’s about a man that checks the oxygen levels in fish ponds at night. I know what you’re thinking… I wonder what kind of excitement could possibly ensue from a book with a title with that must zest and effervescence. Yeah, I’m having trouble answering that one. I’m quite a sarcastic little sprite tonight. I almost wrote another poem today. But then inspiration left me. But I found a good quote…

Even offering three hundred bowls of food three times a day does not match the spiritual merit gained in one moment of love.                              -Nagarjuna

So I feel like poop, but at the same time, I feel light and somewhat cheery. I want to make more friends. I have so much more love to give. Snow Patrol closes out this post with “You’re All I Have.”

mdl

I’m sitting in class thanks for asking. I’ve been super busy this week thus far. I have my 3rd test this week coming up in about an hour. Yippee. Monday I had a History test. It was like 3 pages of writing, it sucked. Yesterday I had a French test. Boo. Then I went to try and get my hair cut, but they were all busy, so I made an appointment for next Tuesday. YAY. Today I have a sociology test. Boo. I haven’t gone to that class at all. Oh well.

Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day. Not so excited. I’m done with this post.

mdl

And then Glosoli, it occured to me.
I cannot be what I am not.
I cannot leave alone my true heart,
It seems I really have forgot,
the very simple, little part,
of life so dull and so mundane
I hear your song and then I see
and as I listen once again,
I remember what it’s like to be.
Truly happy, and what it takes,
Be myself and do what I like,
Forgive other people’s mistakes,
Begin to love, begin to like
the song that comes from within
Hopipola, through the rain
take a moment and then begin

I have come to yet another point in my life where I have ceased being happy. While listening to the only music that truly makes sense to me, odd enough it’s not English, I remembered what it takes to truly be happy in this world.

Being myself, not caring what people think, loving EVERYONE, true friendship, not judging anyone, forgiving all, not living each day in a way that makes them drag on forever, NOT using an umbrella, jumping in puddles, smelling the rain, waking up, drifting off to sleep, daydreaming, studying, reading, being with the people you love, and love you in return, not for any reason or as a stepping stool on which to reach higher social status, being one with your self and the earth, loving your god no matter who it is, the warm smell of laundry, and the soft touch of an admiring hand, a mother’s hug, a mother truly getting exactly what she’s always deserved, even if it takes away from your time with her, and even if it IS 15 years late, awaiting the day that will make it all worth while.

If you have not discovered this happiness, I encourage you to check out Sigur Ros and the videos they have made.